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Carissa Liebowitz's avatar

Thank you for this one. So bittersweet, beautiful, inspiring, & complicated - just like life. 💜💜💜

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Terrell Johnson's avatar

Thank you, Carissa! Hope you are well, my friend -- I'm still following your running adventures on Instagram. So jealous! 😃

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Carissa Liebowitz's avatar

Just trying to survive daily life in a pandemic and reminding myself to be grateful for I DO have. 😉

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Alex Enășescu's avatar

Terrell, I'm a long time lurker and a first time poster, as they say, but this riff of yours on Kara's struggles clicked with me in a very profound way.

This tension between doubt and faith is always at the back of our heads, I suppose, and the willingness to speak candidly about it, the sense that we're all in this together, is truly life-affirming.

Thank you for writing this!

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Terrell Johnson's avatar

Thank you, Alex! And so glad you posted! 😃

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Elizabeth Marro's avatar

This newsletter was particularly beautiful and came to me on a day when a couple of people I know and love are struggling. You are right, we all struggle in many of the same ways. Thank you for sharing your reaction to Goucher’s announcement and for helping me (and all your readers) pause and take a breath to consider the idea of being in recovery mode for all to witness.

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Terrell Johnson's avatar

Thank you so much, Betsy! Her announcement really caught me by surprise; it's just another reminder that you never really know what you're going to wake up to, you know?

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Edith Zimmerman's avatar

An especially beautiful installment of this newsletter. Thank you, Terrell.

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Terrell Johnson's avatar

Thank you so much, Edith! That really does mean a lot

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Mark Loftin's avatar

Every single day that we have is a "special day." Prayers for Kara in her journey. Thanks to Alex for his comment about "doubt and faith." Thank you Terrell for your wonderful work, day by day.

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Terrell Johnson's avatar

Thank YOU, Mark!!

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Kara Kennedy's avatar

I’m thankful you wrote about Kara Goucher today especially, but in the past as well. After you shared excerpts about “Getting Started” from her 2011 book Running for Women I decided to read it since I’m running my first marathon this year. The book reinforces what I’ve already learned about running and addresses my areas for growth/running goals like trying a running club, developing confidence as a runner (feeling like I belong among marathoners) and running a marathon. Her openness about struggles is so relatable! My heart goes out to her as she faces her diagnosis of runners dystonia. I hope she finds strength and love from the incredible support network she’s built, which includes me. I often think during hard runs about running for those who can’t run and train anymore but wish they could. This makes me work harder and fills me with gratitude. Kara Goucher will continue to be an inspiration for me in my journey!

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Terrell Johnson's avatar

I'm so glad you find the same inspiration in her, Kara -- and glad you're enjoying her book! I think she's felt she has a mission to help runners all over the world, that her success gave her a platform and she truly, sincerely wants to help everyone who has struggled with the same things she has. She really is the greatest.

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Dainius's avatar

We are fragile. Best wishes to Kara, for others - just run while we can and enjoy every single mile.

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Terrell Johnson's avatar

Exactly!

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Fr. Cathie Caimano's avatar

so sorry to hear about Kara Goucher, and I so appreciate your reminder of the fleeting and unpredictable nature of life. this is what makes it so beautiful- and so hard, too.

I have been struggling a little bit with motivation for my running (I’m feeling slow, I don’t think I’m improving…).

thanks for giving it to me.

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Terrell Johnson's avatar

Really glad to hear that, Cathie -- I know, I'm with you on the motivation right now, honestly. Lately I've taken to going on bike rides with my 11-year-old instead of big runs on the weekend, and we're having a blast. So, I'm getting in my short (like 3- or 4-mile) runs during the week, but no big long run on the weekends. And I'm actually enjoying it a lot! I don't feel a big push to run longer or faster right now... and I'm really fine with that, you know? I think we all go through changes and phases, and maybe the best thing to do isn't to fight it, but just go with the flow and adapt to it. (I don't know, I'm just thinking out loud here :)

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Fr. Cathie Caimano's avatar

I like that! I find I let myself get into the negative self-talk: I’m not a ‘good’ runner unless I’m running a certain speed, or a certain number of miles. it’s hard to push past that.

Sounds like you are at a place where you enjoy where your running is.

That’s inspiring, too!

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Cindy Perreira's avatar

Thank you so much for this! Beautiful and sad and encouraging, and well, reality!

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Maria's avatar

This is heart breaking and I hurt for her. I am by no means in her league, but this is a terrifying prospect for me. Running has kept me from despair the last few years by helping me cope first with my father's decline, and then with what being a nurse has meant in the last two years. I honestly don't know what I would have done without it and don't even want to contemplate it.

It does though serve as a reminder that I should find other outlets. I have been trying.

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Brian Pillsbury's avatar

Wow, Terrell. This was one of my favorites you have written. The bond formed helping someone through a challenge is so strong. Thank you.

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Terrell Johnson's avatar

Thank you, Brian! 👊

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Corrina T.'s avatar

I was shocked reading about Kara. She is amazing. Life is so crazy sometimes. It’s never what we expect. Made me so grateful for my health & hope I will still be running in 30+ years. 💕 If not, I hope I deal with it as well as she is.

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Terrell Johnson's avatar

Right there with you, Corrina -- definitely reminds me to count my blessings too.

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Nilima Srikantha's avatar

As I remember, Kara's book "Strong" was one of the first reasons I wrote to you way back when. I never did buy the book, but borrowed it from the library. I still keep a personal journal of the best things that happen on my runs and daily photos along the way that jog my memory of the day. This is all due to Kara and your continuing comments. Sad she has been given a disease of the body that is ongoing, happy that she has shared her life and personality to us as runners. No matter what happens, she has been a great contributor to the running world and will continue to be.

It is amazing to me that so much happens to the human body and we keep on going. Doesn't matter if it is an elite or a normal person. While we watch athletes fail at what they hoped for, I was equally happy for Nathan Chen and his flawless performance on the ice. Just a year before, he was crushed by not getting the Gold. (You can tell I'm a skater--both roller and ice!)

One of the better qualities of the Internet.is our heightened awareness of what goes on with other people like us.

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Stan's avatar

I don't know if "like" is enough for this one. Thank you for the incredible read. Life always throws you curves, success comes from being able to not just hit them but also to adapt to them so that they never "beat" you again. Her words, and their inspiration, speak to me of just that...

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